There's nothing wrong with me There ain't nothing wrong with me, I said... I don't know that I care anymore That I'm not quite there anymore It ain't like my brain better thought But I just can't quite explain what I saw My views on life are rarely adored Sure, but I ain't just there for applause When sober, stare at the floors; I'm so damn bored, nothing there when you talk I'm faded, fuck it I'm done trying to fight this True to myself so you cunts can't bite this Took a few wrong turns in a crisis When are stem cells gonna fix tinnitus? I'm off my face when I mic this So what, bro? I'm like this Pardon me your royal highness But it's just how I fight the dryness, 'cause... Can't get no purple drink instead I'm on that robotrip Dingas are shit in Sydney; rather hit that molly dip And if I smoke that kush you know I'm pazin on my feet, too That brown it nearly killed me so just drown myself in cheap booze Otherwise waste time in the head room Even though that I know that I'm dead soon Wanna focus on making music And trying to get these girls in my bedroom But I'm messed up from anxiety And my neighbours don't say hi to me From myself there's no escaping Doc recommends that I keep medicating Seems like that I must keep it up well 'Cause most peeps never know that I'm unwell Even though in the head I'm in turmoil Stand here swaying like I ain't on firm soil Over-thinking shit 'till ideas spoil Paranoid, making hats out of tinfoil Given up any hopes that I'll win royal Watching a pot of mescaline boil I did many dope tabs in the day Hitting bulbs on a trip is cray Yeah I know that shit is wack, but anyway, breathe or you're turning grey I can't blame any drugs that I'm messed up Even as a kid, I was a depressed fuck Tried going to a psych but I soon left He cost heaps so I just got more stressed I drink way too much, try to ban it But keep getting pulled in like planets Tried other ways to address panics But just wound up craving Xanax And if I talk about shabs for too long Feel like I wanna get my toke on Once a toker always a toker This how I got these scars, like The Joker I guess trying to escape from the bad And trying to deal with the hate for my dad Terrified that I'll mostly be him So critical and I'm hopelessly grim Hard on myself; only see things that are negative, so the OCD wins I gotta try and get over these things 'Cause I know life don't owe free wins I know well I'm my own worst rival I think deep but in groups I'm stifled I can't shoot from the hip like a rifle so I'm heaps inconsistent like bibles I feel like I'm trapped in a cycle Mistakes get again recycled I never learn; I'm a bad disciple A hopeless romantic since high school But I can't trust no one's likeful 'Cause abandonment is frightful Never mind, 'cause life is a trifle And ketamine goes down delightful Otherwise, fucken hate when you're prideful I zoom in 'till I just feel spiteful If I keep burning bridges like this then I'll be alone and I guess that's rightful Weed, coke, speed; low self-esteem breed DMT, give me back positivity These shrooms got me tapping into energies Wishing I could still get my hands on some MXC Ain't trying to be an idol, just me Wasn't meant to do a drug song, trust me Guess that I'm pretty bad adjusting Don't curiosity count for something? Or is it just shit in my calendar? Can't trust me to remind this traveller If you can't stop worry does damage ya This story goes nowhere like Salinger Adrian Incarnate 2014

Born of booze, drugs, disdain and ill health This is a tune from my brain for my trill self Suck it up if offended by dissent You're making a mistake if you assume we share a common sense You can't kill my fucken art, 'cause it's all me And fuck a nationality; I'm the whole thing I gotta keep on doing what I feel like 'Cause we only go once through and then we keel, right? Never think before I speak, tongue is one with mind And my views keep changing all the fucken time So if you think you got me pinned you must be dumb and blind 'Cause each of us has many sides, not one of a kind But that don't mean I'm never checkin' my reflection If you would learn a lesson then you gotta question Always assessing the suggestions of my trusted brethren While the rest can suck on my erection and with no protection I don't care if you don't like the way that I live I don't care if you shake your fucken head when I pass I don't care about your bullshit beliefs and opinions I don't care what you think, 'cause I do what I want I don't care And I laugh at the lies in your speakers and things This is some raw honesty and shit I speak from within Fuck a scene; I grew the brains to chuck that shit in the bin Soon as I did I felt my real fucken mission begin I mean I guess it ain't exactly like I'm grinning within' But at least I'm not a worshipper just rippin' my shins I'll take the pain over the ignorance, you listening in? I deal with it drownin' sorrows by just sippin' on gin ...Not that I drink the shit; I just fucken said 'cause it rhymed More a whisky man, neat until I'm dead or I'm blind My whole life I've been exploring why there's dread in my mind Out of place, 'till somebody kindly sends me the mic Not that I freestyle, either, can't be arsed with that But what I mean is when you take away the mask, I'm cracked Only respect some shit that got some real integrity And I ain't got the energy to make them false pleasantries I don't care about the lies that you tell to yourself I don't care about the senseless rules that you've established I don't care what you say if you don't fucken know me I don't care what you think, 'cause I do what I want I don't care How you like me now? I don't even practice A prick to those who try to bite me like I was a cactus Every deep thinker comes to know the touch of madness I get annoyed and burn a bridge, fuck a social status And don't mistake my condemnation for a fucken ego Reclusive wizard in the hills, not some kind of hero Even my family members barely fucken know me 'Cause blood don't mean a damn thing if it's just gonna slow me And I refuse to waste my time on some animals Fear got you acting like a pack of cannibals I'm a new model so we ain't compatible I value time over paper, fuck the capital I've never cared if makin' music could be tactical Subs shakin' in the boot, not 'cause that is cool But 'cause I'm bangin' black metal to some Brad Strut Fuck what you thinkin', 'cause I really ain't give a fuck I don't care if you don't like seein' that graff I don't care if you don't dig the ink on my skin I don't care if you say you're offended because I don't care what you think and I do what I want I don't care Adrian Incarnate 2014

On a stolen land I roam Where the fallen stand alone And a fool commands the throne while futility turns man to stone In a middle class home I was idealistic Propaganda had us optimistic But I learned it was unrealistic to expect most to be altruistic So I cruise sunlit streets in the arvo Killin' eardrums with subs in the cargo Thinkin' right "Yo fuck these whites. "Apathy keeps them warm in the nights." It's like I woke to a different place The masters broke all the world with waste They might think crimes in time will erase But the wounds still hide in the eyes and the face The Western man got us all displaced See what he done to our native race See how his ranks invade their turf Look at how his banks enslaved our Earth Yeah you don't wanna part with your purse But a life in Sydney is part of the curse I know it's hypocritical 'cause I'm born of the race that I'm saying is probably the worst But I can't forgive my forefathers for the pain that they imposed I can't condemn the resentment of those they oppressed when they keep on throwin' low blows There's a time and place to be rising up and I think maybe it nears They blame protesters for the violence but they're the ones who be full of hate and fears Rosher Deep down we carry love and we keep it alive No matter what they do to us, you know we're gonna survive I know the day draws near when they will step aside Until then we're gonna fight 'till the day that we die How can onus lie with the weak? The elites have far more reach If nothing is done should the dispossessed use force to remove the peak? 'Cause as much as I wanna transcend animal instincts like anger and rage Sometimes nothing else gonna be useful to aid the escape of creatures trapped in a cage The betrayed ain't never gonna trust your law to protect dark skins or the poor It was made to oppress at the core and the cops I abhor; they ain't do what they swore See them hurt black kids in the streets Then wonder why crime repeats You demand they observe your rules but you say they're fools; your system's cruel Americans use subversive means to push nations down to their knees Put 'em in debt so they're forced to sell their dreams That's how they make that cream Then we call them terrorists when they resist in the only ways they honestly can We forget that violence is an effect not the cause of poverty's hand It's like an Apartheid still exists in the bush of Australia Politicians fake their image as much as Iggy Azalea As if they give a damn fuck about the fact they persist in failing ya Gonna keep on selling us booze while they seek to ban drug paraphernalia That shit don't seem to be reason 'Till you realise what they believe in is capital through deceivin' Enslaved by the lie of freedom There's enough resources around the world to be feedin' all who be needin' But evermore that demon of greed in the leading's leavin' the heathens bleedin' Adrian Incarnate 2014

Adz I lie here still, reflecting, as heat bows down to obey the storm When the rain begins it cuts me deep that I wasted the day forlorn Kept goin' asleep 'cause I couldn't come up with a reason to rise from bed I muse how it would take days for the neighbours to find my body inside here dead When I was still a teen I wanted to fasten a hose with mask to a gas pipe Then sit in that womb and blast some cones and slowly pass from in that life See the plan was at first that I'd go and I'd burn all the photos with me in 'em So it was like I'd never been born and the world I left would keep on spinnin' without me I don't think that I will for a while but I'm losing the hope of peace A mentor topped himself in his forties, maybe that's when I will be released See it ain't that I think that my life is hard in terms of relative woe It's just I'm a fucken joke and I hate myself for the sorrow this fella does sew I remember the time my ex first saw in the selfish side (of) my heart She used to say I'm a good man but then I watched something in her eyes go dark I just can't compartmentalise; guess genes and cortisol done my mind Nearly died from the smack and I think that's how I'll roll when it comes my time Rinnaz I feel like I'm a thousand thousand thousand years old And it's time that I go to sleep And it's time that I close my eyes Rinnaz Bro, when you talk like that, it's selfish - how would it make your family feel? Think of everybody that you'd leave behind 'fore you go and make those plans be real Common Adz, I reckon you're letting yourself be weak, didn't mean to scorn ya But you can never know what's in store, a new experience 'round the corner Adz But I feel so old from fighting myself, depression it fits like gloves I've failed at family, money and music and most of all at love I can't seem to defeat my pride, anxiety kills me, booze - it owns me Despite how I claim empathic, I can't relate, yo in truth I'm lonely Rinnaz Stop bein' so hard on yourself, ain't no one perfect, stay in the moment If you wanna be loved you've gotta first love yourself; you're the only opponent - own it Adz Yeah but that's the struggle right there, you know, it ain't like I don't understand it It's just that I can't control myself so my life ain't how I fucken planned it Adrian Incarnate 2015

Laugh through my tears, laugh through my tears I'm a warrior; I'll fuckin' last through the years Never hold me down and yo I'll fight for my brothers This is how to be a man - I won't surrender to my fears, oi Laugh through my tears, laugh through my tears I'm a warrior; I'll fuckin' last through the years Never hold me down, you know I'd die for my lovers This is how to be a man - I won't surrender to my fears In a race this animalistic, need grace to be pacifistic It's kind of difficult trying to keep up compassion when facing the cannibalistic And I say they eat those that are just like them 'cause they ain't got perspective It'd be so easy to dwell in hate to escape bein' ever reflective But I'd rather fall in love and know that I made her safe at night So I claw my way through the mud of mental illness and hope there's a way in sight Seen enough of the world to expect there will always be less fun than war But I don't care how many times you knock me down I will never succumb to the floor And I hate all the horrible shit that I done in the past that I don't condone Every day replay the events in which I earned the regrets I own The mistakes I made motivate me still to improve and I know I've grown I'll build me into the man who I should have been then if it puts me under a stone As we age most of us accept that we won't be the ones who come to a throne The way that I think has largely led to a path that I wonder alone But every time I fall I see that my life's gonna always know disorder I learn that to make it you gotta be loose and ready to adapt to the flow like water That's why I've gotta stand and guard my own now 'Cause we all gonna die alone now And though the gods keep on takin' I will go on through the storm, stay the course, carry on now Adrian Incarnate 2015

...mmm one would have thought all the pain you've felt at the hands of men that use you Who screen your calls when you need them 'cept when they wanna stick it in like Voodoo Would have taught you to be empathic in turn to affections felt by a dude who, from the moment he saw you thought he could see real magic channeling through you But I forget that a girl as cute got many obnoxious creepers loomin' And is therefore less inclined to relate to a man as a deeper human Plus I know at the end of the day we all gotta make sacrifices to all the energy that we give so we can reserve what we need to keep us movin' I can understand that... but it's hard to observe you generalise about gender While I keep getting let down by apparently endless lies Is it really true that a girl is better at sayin' just how she feel? I must be half bitch then 'cause I swear I'm always the one that keeps it real I don't claim I deserve your affections 'cause of any of my alleged virtues, either But if I gotta be the only cunt (that's) gonna fight apathy, then curse you deeper I know I ain't no prize - all I ask is a bit of compassion Just as you would yourself want if you fell for another in a similar fashion Last night you passed me on the street And you just looked right through me All the things that we said forever live In a faraway world where we aren't yet strangers So alas, I begin to think that I've walked 'till now in a backwards way That in fact it's futile trying to get around all the games that the masses play And don't get me started 'bout how you say you want a boy that's lovin' and honest 'Cause I know you turn those down in favour of players that never said nothin' that's modest Yo the truth has rarely earned me anythin' other than shame and sadness, really What was it that had me determined that love was the answer? Madness, clearly Could have lost my mind over you, 'cause I think I expect too much I refuse to stick to the rules, so of course I fail to connect and such You'll probably dismiss this shit as crazy... egotistical maybe But I hope deep down there still is a part that in secret will listen, relating 'Cause you know how it hurts despite your appeals when the one who you covet ignores you We passed on the street last night like strangers, still I can't help but adore you I remember that time we kissed, I thought "yo I def want more from her" So I made the mistake of showing you how fuckin' cool I thought you were Well I'm sorry for the waste of time - in the future I'll be less committal If only to avoid the embarrassment of getting this hurt over one who cared so little Adrian Incarnate 2015