I’m up late again, drinking, repeating that song
I can’t keep my eyes focused, nostalgia is strong
There’s something inside my belly just a little bit wrong
Been growing like a cancer, I dunno for how long
But it’s probably the one thing about me that ain't changed
I’ve taken many forms and gone by many names over the course of millennia
I think it’s strange
And now I fear there’s no core to this fucken maze

I’ve had so many views that I dunno what to believe
Philosophy is fucken dead, that much I perceive
I’ve thrown aside so many things that I had
Seems I've been running away since I left from my dad
And I know there’s so much beauty on the earth where I live
Yet I struggle to keep hold like a newborn kid
Maybe this new form is the best cure for my misery
Nah… my lord, Chaos, never lets me gain symmetry hah!

Chaos has love for no one's "culture"
Needs to be free
Whilst they subsist without reflection; change is eternal
Its joyful encumbrance:
Their misconception
Its flag
Its god of no gods

I’ve felt often that I’ve got nowhere to turn when I stray
Those times I’ve been alone and I’ve wanted to pray
If not for my depression then I might have just stayed
When we sum each other up we never see how we’re made
I know there’s many in my wake who will not understand
why I left ‘em all behind, but I had to expand
I gotta go my way and just wonder the land
I don’t hold any grudge, bro, but this is my plan

See people where I come from never get where I am now
And people where I am now will never get what’s gone down
I listen hard ‘cause it’s made me a man, yo
While many got no hearing left, like they was Van Gough
Because they need to think they got all the answers
I hope we can evolve but I wonder the chances
My great journey left me battered and scarred
And I’ve barely begun to find my way down this dark path

And as I drift into nothing, the memory fades
The great void envelopes me and my energies change
The last thing I leave behind is the sound of my name
And all my deeds wash away like blood in the rain
All the pain is forgotten; I’m one with the arcane
The vibration in a moment on this vast plane
Omnipotent, I meditate in the fast lane
Draw in the mana, preparing it for my dark reign

Unrecognized by past companions
Indefinable, these cosmic plans that are imagined
Dreamscape injections unfathomed
Intensity unparalleled and unchallenged
The rules morph, disorder tears rifts
The death of immortals, the paradigm shifts
You decadent souls are desperate to resist
But I’m'a head into this, the ever-changing abyss

Adrian Incarnate 2011