I write down these painful anthems
My disdain blows out the lanterns
Skeleton in a haunted mansion
The cobwebbed king of the mournful phantoms
We're standing upon the event horizons
of black holes, where we're left surviving
We just can't pinpoint the mold
'Cause this chain reaction's old

And that told, killing all pretensions
We've gotta try and cut through defenses
'Cause though meaning is perception
The vampire loathes seeing reflections
Yo, if I lost respect for you tomoz
You know I'd soon reject you too, because
I'm well selfish in lots of ways, since...
Long ago when I lost my patience

And now I don't give a damn what you hacks say
Although I love when she holds on me that way
If I could die, there'd be nothing else
But I must keep trying to defeat myself
And I must kill my goddamn ego
I took a lot from that Eastern credo
It made sense with the quantum maths
Forget fools 'cause I really don't want them back, you know that?

In fields of consciousness
Each node appears subjective
Beautiful paradox
It's only our illusion
If we could measure all
Then would we know the future?
Complexity's too great
The gods are unpredictable

The new hatchling lacked the prudence
But soon came to despise the rudeness
Never time for a competition
Revere those who just want to listen
'Cause I'm pretty sure all the board connects
Yeah, I don't care who the horde elects
But the guilt that your bullshit lord injects
Takes control of the mind like cordyceps

So my pantheon's entropy
Gravity and the chemistry
Electromagnetic energy
The weak and the strong forces behind everything
The Chaos of determinism
The great wave that we all exist in
No separate organisms
No finite definitions I'm aware of

Ideas lose wings when they're defended
The ego is blind
Beware of forming your beliefs
'Till we've seen inside

In the wave not independent
Chaos star is the pendent
Ideas never defended
Friendships left open ended
I no longer need surrender
To the childish moral endeavors
of the common social zealot
I won't listen to how they sell it

And now all that is left to end it
Is to overcome resentment
But so much that is broke inside
Near drives me to suicide
And I think to myself "don't need 'em"
"Solitude can bring me freedom"
Their egos will devote to sides
That gets in the way of an open fucking mind

We think we fight to be ourselves
But we "think" together
Collective neural chain reaction
In the mental field
Our sentience not what it seems
If there's no freedom of will
The quantum cosmos hides the secrets

Capitulate rather than compete
Make no corrections
For I know that truth persists regardless
of your misconceptions

As we observe the infinitesimal
We quantize analogue to mental
Measurements create confusion
Perhaps Time is a great illusion
Uncertainty gets the floor
In this realm of the Second Law
A tangled hierarchy seems
to rule this plane that's made of dreams

and made of nightmares and misconceptions
The idea of a "soul" I question
Neurons build new connections
We're just transient cell collections
And that's why no private end games
Influence flies right through membranes
But you've always held us down
And that's why I resent your crown

We think we fight to stay alive
But it's all a process
Collective chemical reaction
Since the last big bang
For now the consciousness survives
But soon will tear asunder
Only silence will remain

Adrian Incarnate 2013